Magic

I have always been hugely jealous of people who can write well. I am in awe of the way that they can make me feel something, to think about things in a new way, and inspire me to be a better person.
I love being able to read, I find it to be one of the great pleausres of my life and I am truly blessed to have been taught that love through my mother. I can remember when my dad was working nights that the three of us little kids would all pile on to her bed at night she would read to us.
Reading is a true joy.

For Christmas E was given the Lego Harry Potter Wii game. He loves, loves, loves playing Wii. The game had him asking questions about the Harry Potter story, and he wanted to watch the movie. I told him that books were better, that he couldn't watch the movie until he'd read the book.
He has always been very talented in reading but now he's been hit by Harry Potter's magic.
We started at about the beginning of February and are now on book 4: The Goblet of Fire. We read at least 1 chapter a day. He insists it's because he wants to get to the movie faster, but I think he's covering up his real motives. He is constantly asking questions, wanting to know why that happened, if this will ever happen, do we find out about this or that? He daydreams about it. He desperately wants to go the Universal Studios Harry Potter theme park in Florida. He doesn't even really love the movies because of the discrepancies with the books. He even would rather read the book than play the Wii game, and that, my friend, is a triumph!



This picture was taken when E was about 11 months old, and this was his favorite book at the time.

Reading is magical!

Cycle V -- Day 18

I had an ultrasound to check if my follicles were still there, and all three were gone, meaning that I'd ovulated. We did the IUI, I took it easy yesterday hoping that might be helpful. Since I'd already ovulated I don't need to do another IUI. Now we just wait and see

Hallelujah!

A big fat hug and thank you needs to go out to Lindsay!
She invited me to join her gourmet group, one of the thousands of things I've missed about Arizona.
Since the first time she mentioned that she belonged to a Gourmet Group I've just been waiting for someone to 'kick the bucket' and leave the group so there might be an opening for me, lucky for me it just so happened that it was Lindsay's sister-in-law who left, providing me an 'in' and someone who I couldn't be more excited to host with. Our month is June, already the wheels are turning, planning, thinking, drooling.
I had my first fabulous gourmet dinner in California last Tuesday night, and it reminded me just how so, so, so, much fun these events can be.
Hooray!

(This is a bit late, sorry, it doesn't mean I'm not totally excited about it).

Cycle V -- Day 17

Went in for my ultrasound today, three follicles are ready. Had my hCG shot. We have an appointment for IUI tomorrow and will have another one on Wednesday.

Think implantation, people...

It's worked twice before, it can happen again.

Cycle V -- Day 3

I went in for my baseline ultrasound today. Dr. M. and I talked and decided that we'll do IUI this month, and if I don't get pregnant this cycle that I'll need to start doing hMG shots next cycle. But in the meantime I start my Femara again tonight and go back for an ultrasound on day twelve.

Lessons learned:
1. Glazed doughnuts really do make the world a little bit brighter.
2. Don't blog about starting a new cycle on the first day.

Looking back my post seems a little dramatic, and while it is a true view of my heart on Saturday a few days have made a big difference. I'm still deeply disappointed and am not sure if I can talk about it in person without crying, but we'll see, I suppose.
It's hard because we all have a game plan for what we want the plays to be for our lives. But then a linebacker pops up. While not everyone deals with infertility there is always something; whether it be divorce, death of a loved one, an unexpected career change, any personal disaster and suddenly the playbook is altered and we find ourselves scrambling to figure out which way to run next; and then we think we see the touchdown on the horizon and the quarterback gets sacked. But I'm not at the 4th and 10, more like the 1st and 3-ish, and it's not quite the fourth quarter, more like half-time.

Cycle V -- Day 1

I started my new cycle today. My brain says that I'm fine, that I can wait another month. But my heart isn't in agreement. I feel like a hot shower, a raised doughnut, and bed.

I'll talk about this in a few days, but not today.