Insomnia

So this morning I experienced my usual once-a-week-insomnia bout. M started crying at 2:30am, and since he doesn't need to eat at that time and didn't have a dirty diaper, I let him cry it out. Then I lay there convincing myself that I'm a terrible mother for letting my five-month-old cry for so long. He did eventually go back to sleep after a little while (he's a stubborn one, cute, but stubborn), but after he was done, I was mysteriously wide awake. I was up for about 2 hours, just thinking. Sometimes I wish I could turn off my brain. What did I think about you say? I'm not sure, just everything, and nothing important enough to remember now.
E slept in this morning until 7:45am, which I was very grateful for. And he even let me go back to sleep while he watched cartoons. Usually when I try to go back to bed he comes in to 'check' on me every 10 minutes to see if I'm still asleep, it's not very restful. But he is a very sweet boy.
I also wanted to post a very cute story about him. For his birthday he got a 'Woody' doll (from Toy Story). It was the only present he'd asked for (he got way more than that, but this was THE present for some reason). After his party last Saturday we went to eat at the Cheesecake Factory (as always, scrumptious). Both of my boys were exhausted after such a big day, and M was having a very hard time in the car on the way home. E was distraught that M was crying so much and kept telling him, "I'm sorry M, there's nothing I can do". When we got here (M finally gave up crying and fell asleep about 3 blocks from home), I get out of the car to get Mn, and E had put his new Woody doll in M's car seat to try to help him feel better. It was so sweet, I just about cried. I have a wonderful boy!

Much Better

Today is going much better. I'm very glad because yesterday was just one of those days when if felt like I had nothing but negative to say, especially to E. I sorted things out, and all in all I feel mostly back to normal.

I got a shipment of new clothes today, and of course that always makes things much more smooth. Also, I'm saving a life. There was a little dog hanging out outside of our house, so I brought him in and I've called animal control. They'll come get him soon. He's a nice little dog, too bad I greatly enjoy not having an animal right now or I just might be tempted to keep him. Ethan is supposed to be napping right now and he knows the dog is here. I think he's just too excited to sleep, he's been laying in there for 1 1/2 hours singing to himself. I'll just leave him there.

Also, M is 5 months old today, how time flies! With both of my boys I've bought a package of party hats and for the first year I put the hat on them and on their month birthdays I take their picture, this helps me see how much they've grown. He's a keeper that's for sure!

Pick Me Up

Today I'm in need of a pick me up. For some reason I've been inexplicably grumpy. I didn't sleep well last night, M has been fussy all day, E who is allllllllwwwwwaaaayyyysss talkative has seemed especially so today, and I'm getting a terrible headache. I'm also having one of those times when I have something important to discuss with someone and rather than talking to them I play out the conversation over and over and over again in my head. So I think I'll list things that make me happy and hopefully I'll have had a little bit of a pick me up.
>100 degree weather!
(oh boy, one down and I've almost run out of things already)
A clean house
Silence
Friends
Kittens
Baby laughs
Little boy laughs
Fresh flowers
Chocolate (I think I'll go have some)
New clothes
Being able to hear
Calendars
My pretty wedding ring
A good massage
Bug spray
Good food
My new hair cut (thanks Karen)
Napping
Cold water

I know the list should be longer, but frankly it's a tough one today.
Any suggestions?

E's Birthday

Today is E's fourth birthday. It makes me feel really old to have him be that old. For his party he had his friends Briant, Max, Cooper, Dallin, Bree and his cousin Jacob over to our house on Saturday to play on a bouncy house water slide, break the pinata, open presents and eat cake. I felt slightly bad because we loaded the kids up with all those goodies then sent them home at 5:30, right before dinner time. But all the kids had fun, so that was good.
The strangest thing that being a mother has done for me was give me an understanding of why the first prostitute probably started doing what she did. Mothers will do things for their children that they wouldn't do for anyone else on earth. Don't worry, I'm not considering taking up this profession, it was just a thought that I had recently. Before I had kids I was baffled as to why someone would sink that low, now it's a little more clear.

First Time at This Blogging Stuff

So really, I'm just trying this out. I'm kind of (well, very) technology dumb. A lot of my friends have blogs and I figured I should get in on the loop. Plus it will be a way for me to vent/organize/catalog my thoughts. So here we go...